

ABSURD WORLD [Split]
Wolfy's answer to the previous 3 songs...
1. Mass Distraction – The Absurd World (Live) (00:00)
2. Camus Fanboy – The Absurd World (03:32)
I promise it's the final "sad" post – I'm going back to sharing the normal sexy stuff after this! Can't wait to finally post the pics I really enjoyed making until got hit by a bunch of personal issues!
Speaking of which, I've been doing some acupuncture (ouch), having massages (ouch), got a fresh air pump with a HEPA/carbon filter for my room (yay), changed the lamps (discovered through my phone's camera I had flickering lights for years, it's not noticeable to human eye but was probably why my eyes hurt and blur all the time), also went on a diet (suddenly a blood test showed high cholesterol while it was fine half a year ago), and started walking outside, so hopefully the measures will suffice to keep me from feeling like trash for a few more years. Lesson learned about spending 24/7 holed up at home, working for 18 hours a day while sleeping no more than 5 hours without any airflow. Unfortunately, it takes years before it starts showing on your health and you figure out what caused the issue... but better late than never, at least it wasn't too late.
The Absurd World
(Lyrics by Wolfy)
In the face of chaos and despair
There's only one thing left to share
It's the knowledge that our lives are absurd
And yet, we keep moving forward like a herd
We strive for meaning while our fate's unknown
Caught between two worlds, we're never home
The universe is vast and cold and dark
But still, we try to find some spark
The Absurd World, it's where we dwell
The Absurd World, our holy hell
The Absurd World won't set us free
The Absurd World, the mystery
The Absurd World is here to stay
The Absurd World, day after day
The Absurd World, but so am I
The Absurd World until I die
You could say I'm a pessimist
Just accepting life is a test
Or call me an optimist
For seeing beauty in the mess
But I prefer to be the absurdist
One who knows life isn't worth a bit
And yet, I still choose each day
To paint my own picture, add a little ray
So let's make art before the end
While there's time to twist and bend
Let's sing and dance and laugh and cry
Before we disappear into the sky
It is especially nice to read about it with such hot art and nice music, sounding like some really cheerful track from some good opening or AMV, which I often search for and listen to. It may not sound like the highest comparison, but I really like a lot of this type of music, and these tracks are nice to listen to.
Joka
The best way I personally find to deal with it is to change the music to something uplifting because most music in the world is extremely depressive, I have no idea why people have little to no variety in terms of making sad music. I think maybe because humans are pathetic and their egos are so boosted they're trying their best to be deadly serious at all times. It's so much more enjoyable to listen to something more post-ironic, the form is serious but at the same time you can almost feel the crooked smile of the author behind the track.
Music that's not desperately trying to touch your heart and play on the strings of your nerves, but rather reduce everything to a game, playfully making fun of this whole existence. Sadly 99.9% of music is deadly serious, made by very serious people - I can barely name a few bands that I've heard which have that kind of humor in them, while not turning themselves into a complete joke band... Tenacious D, maybe Dio himself, just people who make you think "man, you can't be serious" but at the same time the music is kickass...
Sorry don't know why I can't stop babbling... I just wanted to say thank you for being one of very few people who responded to all these musical posts I tried to make in 2024.
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I am glad to hear the news. I hope you can recover soon and be in a good mood every day.
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Thank you for your attention and encouragement! I will continue to work hard to improve myself, instead of just posting my unhappiness on the Internet. Your support is a great source of warmth for me. Thank you for your support over the years.
Well, I've never been in another world, so this one is all I know. If it's absurd then so be it - it could be absurd, meaningful, beautiful, cruel, chaotic, calm, guess it depends on a personal point of view. So in the end, we could say it's the person who's absurd, not the world itself.
This week I've seen several people while visiting a medical center - everybody seems to live in their own imaginary world. When I think of Yunia or 2201, I deliberately make up things just to make fun pictures, but people really do believe all sorts of political crap, talk nonsense about things they cannot know and live within their crazy made-up worlds for real - and they do take it seriously. It's specially weird to see how it makes people happy to be so puny and ridiculous - there's something they've never seen or experienced, but they already have a strong opinion about it, ready to argue and even punch you if you don't agree. Poor pathetic, petty humans, but the morons are the majority on this planet and you gotta deal with them, when sometimes there's no other choice.
In fact, I hardly even sit down at all, I've got an adjustable height desk, so I'm mostly standing. When tired I sit down upon a couple of balance discs stacked upon a small box to make the height perfect for the knees. The feeling is similar to those stability balls that are trendy nowadays, but without looking too weird.
Occasionally I'll try to sit on my gamer chair but always regret it after a few hours after getting lower back pains from it... I think chairs were the main cause of my back problems before, luckily some genius invented adjustable height desks with electric lifts. But I discovered an easy way to treat lower back pains anyway, just by sitting on those balancing discs, somehow they have some mystical healing powers...
To improve your psychological state and improve brain function, I recommend drinking microdosing of Mukhosor and Hezhovik for 10-12 days, half a teaspoon without top. This will really help and put the body back to normal.
And the picture is cool, stylish with good detail.
Amanita muscaria contains two main compounds: muscimol and ibotenic acid. These are different from psilocybin and do not have any health benefits. Muscimol affects neurotransmitters in the brain, dampening its activity (similar to Valium), while ibotenic acid is a toxin similar to glutamate that can harm the brain.
Muscimol poisoning rarely leads to death, mostly causing severe digestion problems. Ibotenic acid may cause long-term neurological damage - it is normally used in research labs to destroy specific areas of rat brains to study the function of different brain regions.
So while harvesting and consuming fly agaric is not strictly forbidden in most countries, promoting it as a "health product" is a serious issue. So I'll let someone else play the Russian roulette with their body. I'm sure microdoses aren't lethal, but I don't want to deal with any digestion problems and loss of brain cells.
As for lemon and black pepper, of course I love them both and always use them as spices in my kitchen, and turmeric too. But I'm afraid they won't help if the main problem is lack of fresh air, pollution, flickering lights, overwork and poor sleep habits. First I'll try to fix those main issues...
Wolfy looks and sound perfect!😍💪 His voice and body is totally rocking!💖
Cum right in our faces, Wolfy. Make your dick hard again. And sing us another song.
Sasha M
PS Really glad to hear you decided "to get in shape" a little. Human life is short and absurd, but it gives us the opportunity to do all sorts of interesting meaningless things while we're alive and "in shape". Hugs.
For myself, I think it's possible to understand the universe if we manage to discard words such as zero, infinity, and everything else that's part of the language. The inner dialog that tells us all kinds of things, starts on the level of the throat, but above it is the third eye, the Ajna chakra, which is languageless. And above that the crown chakra, the portal to the realm beyond human understanding.
Few people reach the level of the throat, we know them as wise people who can explain things from scratch, instead of quoting some books. Meditation makes it possible to reach the Ajna, where the inner dialog stops, and eventually the crown chakra, where the world ends and the human boundaries vanish.
Will we get the answers from the the universe or merely find that all questions disappear during self-realization? Who knows. One thing is clear - the scientific description of the world has nothing to do with the true nature of existence, and even less to do with our own true essence.
Too bad spiritual discussions always sound so pretentious, even though in reality it's not half as bizarre or intricate as it sounds... But you're right, human life isn't infinite, it would be best to remember dedicating more time to enjoy handsome boys and yummy cocks, like the ancient Greek philosophers were recommending :D
-Valri
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This stance is fantastic!
BTW, who's his drummer, beating off in the background? 💦
Love, love, LOVE the shattered upper left corner!
Now I'll disappear into this guy (the sky)
-J
Zero or infinity... It's the horizon.
Of course, we can protest against words and deny scientific knowledge, just as we rejected religion, but we cannot escape the fact that this is the very horizon beyond which no one can look: neither those who believe in science, nor those who believe in gods, nor those who believe in chakras.
Zero and infinity. These are not words, not feelings, not science and not religion. It's the horizon. You can't penetrate the horizon, because it doesn't exist. There is no knowledge there, no right question, which means that any answers are meaningless... The funniest thing about this problem is that by denying the existence of Zero and Infinity, we thereby loudly declare their existence...
Maybe Andrzej's huge dick will one day be able to stretch Zero, turning it into Infinity. And then Sarah's huge breasts will fill Infinity to the brim...
This is our last hope!
Sasha M
PS Sorry, Couldn't help myself. Life is absurd and meaningless, but that doesn't mean it should make us sad or too serious. :D
About the horizon, I think we can't reach it simply because of its definition - when you stand on top of a big ball, the horizon is the perimeter of the area you can directly observe. The higher you rise above the surface, the wider horizon you can see, unless the air is foggy.
The human language obscures the actuality, but at the same time, there's a million gaps in a day where we don't have the inner dialog going and at the same time we continue to be fully present, so it's fair to say that the inner silence is the next stratum above words.
If I'm allowed to dive deeper, I can present my entire theory about these things. I've never read books about chakras, so it's just my wild guesses. The idea is that when you appear in your original pure form, straight out of the oven, so to speak, you start at what we could call Lv.7. As the material world unfolds and becomes heavier, you may get pulled down all the way to Lv.1 as you start imagining more and more things until you fully convince yourself that they're real.
The short description of this journey downwards:
Lv.7. The Crown - no human boundaries, just "That", no specific material world, no illusion, no dreaming about this human form, just pure reality.
Lv.6. The Third Eye - the feeling "I am" appears, the material realm is present but still perceived as a mirage. No language and concepts, only silence and wordless wisdom.
Lv.5. The Throat - the inner dialog starts, the person is still wise and able to think clearly, yet their speech spawns evergrowing delusions and constructs devoid of connection to actuality, dragging them down below. This is the level of a talkative sage.
Lv.4. The Chest - strong emotions arise, the person becomes easily overwhelmed by anger, depression, attachment towards worldly objects and other people, feelings of loss and other intense sentiments. This stage is a deep pit from which escape can be quite challenging if one falls in it. The only way out is to distract oneself, and then solve the problem on a different level.
Lv.3. The Guts - the society prevails, there are authorities, the person can't think for themselves anymore, all they do is repeat what they've been told. The person becomes reactive and solves issues by sticking to habits and "traditions", and keeps repeating beaten "truths". This is the level of a false academic, their head is full of useless information they've memorized without real understanding.
Lv.2. The Groin - the person becomes miserable, terrified and confused by the world, everything in life is an obstacle and they're unable to move forward even one inch.
Lv.1. The Ass - the person turns into a clueless, material-oriented survivor, a money-maker, a mindless consumer, one who can't understand a single word of a sage and rather enjoys pretending to be a complete idiot. Words of wisdom are perceived as a personal offense.
This is probably a major reinvention of the wheel, but as I couldn't find these thoughts anywhere else, I had to write them down. Just wanted to say that words have extremely little value to the universe and they practically don't exist above Lv.5. All the obstacles in the world lay in the definitions of words, not in reality, so the stratum I called Lv.7 supposedly leads to the understanding of the universe and the self.
In any case, sorry for sharing the stuff that goes far beyond the scope of this porn site... I really could have wrapped it better, e.g. maybe make a story where different characters demonstrate these different levels in action or something like that.
Speaking of which, I need to finally get back to posting and post the next episode of Boob Wars, but I also need to keep replying to all the comments I got... Really wish we had 48 hours in a day :D
-Valri
When I hear the word chakras or the name Carlos Castaneda, I just run away like a true coward... I mean, like a true agnostic. :D
Sasha M
Personally, I don't follow any sort of doctrines, even agnosticism. I believe saying that something is impossible is not very accurate. There are countless examples where impossible things were made possible through some creative workaround. Even the science knows that reality has nothing to do with how our eyes perceive it.
Think about it: we can't see gravity, we just *know* it's there because teachers taught us so. If we doubted it, we'd fail our tests, our lives would be ruined, we couldn't think of going to university and we'd die young in some stupid war.
The education system drills these into our heads until we're crippled to think that everything else is impossible. But gravity is a mere concept - people 1000 years ago had no idea of gravity. Imagine I'm a medieval guy who's convinced that it's "impossible" to explain why things fall down and I plan to never understand that in my lifetime no matter what. You wouldn't be able to convince me with words like gravity, I'd just run away like a coward :D
Anyhoo, I apologize for wasting a lot of your time and clearly bothering you with my messages. It's often really heavy on my heart that I'll have to lose everything in just a few years, so I take small chances to chat about sometimes irrelevant things while I can. Thanks for bearing with my blabbering.
I tried to write an answer several times, but I could not write an answer that would satisfy me. Firstly, I did not understand some things from what you said. Secondly, I myself could not find the right English words to explain my views, since the topic is quite complex, and Google Translate is a very bad assistant in such cases.
I could write my answer in Russian, but I know that Google Translate often translates complex and long Russian sentences just terribly, distorting the meaning almost beyond recognition.
Look, you called agnosticism a doctrine, and you perceived my thoughts about the "unity of such opposite things as zero (non-existence) and infinity (unlimited existence)" as something imposed on me by some other people and as a completely artificial construction that has no connection with the real world (whatever that is). You give an example with gravity (although it is such an insignificant detail, it is just one of the infinite number of details that make up the universe).
But I do not have enough tools to explain that you understood me incorrectly. I simply cannot explain it to you correctly enough. Maybe words have no relation to the real world, but only with their help we can communicate on such topics.
Please be fair to me: just look at how long posts I usually write to you when the subject is not so complex and my vocabulary is sufficient.
And you still doubt that I really enjoy spending time talking with you?!
Hugs
Sasha M
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