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I apologize if my long-winded reply with complex themes was too much. It took me two almost entire days to write it but I guess I screwed things up at the end by bringing up the chakras and Castaneda. I always write from the heart without any particular agenda, not trying to convert you, so sorry that these random keywords spooked you out.

Personally, I don't follow any sort of doctrines, even agnosticism. I believe saying that something is impossible is not very accurate. There are countless examples where impossible things were made possible through some creative workaround. Even the science knows that reality has nothing to do with how our eyes perceive it.

Think about it: we can't see gravity, we just *know* it's there because teachers taught us so. If we doubted it, we'd fail our tests, our lives would be ruined, we couldn't think of going to university and we'd die young in some stupid war.

The education system drills these into our heads until we're crippled to think that everything else is impossible. But gravity is a mere concept - people 1000 years ago had no idea of gravity. Imagine I'm a medieval guy who's convinced that it's "impossible" to explain why things fall down and I plan to never understand that in my lifetime no matter what. You wouldn't be able to convince me with words like gravity, I'd just run away like a coward :D

Anyhoo, I apologize for wasting a lot of your time and clearly bothering you with my messages. It's often really heavy on my heart that I'll have to lose everything in just a few years, so I take small chances to chat about sometimes irrelevant things while I can. Thanks for bearing with my blabbering.

As I see it, the main function of words is to make us imagine certain things to understand what others want from us. But different people might imagine different things... Carlos Castaneda was the master of accurate terms, he couldn't find an appropriate word for the origin of all existence, so he used to call it "infinity". I think it's a good way to call something that's not bound by anything but is the cause of everything. It's the cause of the cause of the cause, and so on, perhaps forever, that's why a pure mathematical abstraction like "infinity" works impeccably in this case ;D

About the horizon, I think we can't reach it simply because of its definition - when you stand on top of a big ball, the horizon is the perimeter of the area you can directly observe. The higher you rise above the surface, the wider horizon you can see, unless the air is foggy.

The human language obscures the actuality, but at the same time, there's a million gaps in a day where we don't have the inner dialog going and at the same time we continue to be fully present, so it's fair to say that the inner silence is the next stratum above words.

If I'm allowed to dive deeper, I can present my entire theory about these things. I've never read books about chakras, so it's just my wild guesses. The idea is that when you appear in your original pure form, straight out of the oven, so to speak, you start at what we could call Lv.7. As the material world unfolds and becomes heavier, you may get pulled down all the way to Lv.1 as you start imagining more and more things until you fully convince yourself that they're real.

The short description of this journey downwards:

Lv.7. The Crown - no human boundaries, just "That", no specific material world, no illusion, no dreaming about this human form, just pure reality.
Lv.6. The Third Eye - the feeling "I am" appears, the material realm is present but still perceived as a mirage. No language and concepts, only silence and wordless wisdom.
Lv.5. The Throat - the inner dialog starts, the person is still wise and able to think clearly, yet their speech spawns evergrowing delusions and constructs devoid of connection to actuality, dragging them down below. This is the level of a talkative sage.
Lv.4. The Chest - strong emotions arise, the person becomes easily overwhelmed by anger, depression, attachment towards worldly objects and other people, feelings of loss and other intense sentiments. This stage is a deep pit from which escape can be quite challenging if one falls in it. The only way out is to distract oneself, and then solve the problem on a different level.
Lv.3. The Guts - the society prevails, there are authorities, the person can't think for themselves anymore, all they do is repeat what they've been told. The person becomes reactive and solves issues by sticking to habits and "traditions", and keeps repeating beaten "truths". This is the level of a false academic, their head is full of useless information they've memorized without real understanding.
Lv.2. The Groin - the person becomes miserable, terrified and confused by the world, everything in life is an obstacle and they're unable to move forward even one inch.
Lv.1. The Ass - the person turns into a clueless, material-oriented survivor, a money-maker, a mindless consumer, one who can't understand a single word of a sage and rather enjoys pretending to be a complete idiot. Words of wisdom are perceived as a personal offense.

This is probably a major reinvention of the wheel, but as I couldn't find these thoughts anywhere else, I had to write them down. Just wanted to say that words have extremely little value to the universe and they practically don't exist above Lv.5. All the obstacles in the world lay in the definitions of words, not in reality, so the stratum I called Lv.7 supposedly leads to the understanding of the universe and the self.

In any case, sorry for sharing the stuff that goes far beyond the scope of this porn site... I really could have wrapped it better, e.g. maybe make a story where different characters demonstrate these different levels in action or something like that.

Speaking of which, I need to finally get back to posting and post the next episode of Boob Wars, but I also need to keep replying to all the comments I got... Really wish we had 48 hours in a day :D

I agree with you, Sasha! However, some parts remind me of common phrases said many times before... Should we take everything for granted as long as it's repeated a thousand times? No. To me, one thing is clear - the scientific description of the world doesn't relate to the real world at all. The scientific description is constantly changing and mutating, while the reality never changes.

For myself, I think it's possible to understand the universe if we manage to discard words such as zero, infinity, and everything else that's part of the language. The inner dialog that tells us all kinds of things, starts on the level of the throat, but above it is the third eye, the Ajna chakra, which is languageless. And above that the crown chakra, the portal to the realm beyond human understanding.

Few people reach the level of the throat, we know them as wise people who can explain things from scratch, instead of quoting some books. Meditation makes it possible to reach the Ajna, where the inner dialog stops, and eventually the crown chakra, where the world ends and the human boundaries vanish.

Will we get the answers from the the universe or merely find that all questions disappear during self-realization? Who knows. One thing is clear - the scientific description of the world has nothing to do with the true nature of existence, and even less to do with our own true essence.

Too bad spiritual discussions always sound so pretentious, even though in reality it's not half as bizarre or intricate as it sounds... But you're right, human life isn't infinite, it would be best to remember dedicating more time to enjoy handsome boys and yummy cocks, like the ancient Greek philosophers were recommending :D

I just thought that talking like that would give him a more youthful, cool vibe, like those trendy teenagers on Instagram who try to come across as cool and energetic. It's quite typical among youngsters, so sometimes you have to lower your standards a bit when reading their texts. However, if you need me to provide translations for clarity, I'm happy to help, I just didn't know it would be so difficult to understand everything he says.

As for Stephan's situation, I didn't imagine that someone truly bullied him, my guess is that there might have been some guy who just like to tease him a little for looking girly because it gave him a boner, and he was too shy to flirt with another guy in public. So yes, maybe he did push him around a little, not out of malice. I'm glad they've found a new way to push him around now, and both are having a great time with it :D

Thank you so much for your kind words, Sasha! Yup, our princess could really use some help to carry her majestic bosom. But the pygmies surely didn't choose their deities by accident - I bet those youngsters can handle bearing the weight of a thousand boobs on their folded backs without breaking a sweat.

Love the idea, hoping I can make it happen somehow someday! But indeed, walking side-by-side might not work too well for them, perhaps they could use some hoverboards or something. On a second thought, this idea might indeed be one of those things that only sound good in theory, but won't look good in practice... Still fun to think about!

Imagine if her twins had their own "twins" hahah. It's really strange how Helmut ended up with great boobs after meeting Melonie and enjoying some melon juice, yet her own sons never get any busts from it.

Makes me think if they don't drink melon juice because it would kind of make them melon vampires, feeding on their own relatives? Is that cannibalism for them to eat melons? Hahaha!

I've always thought they almost eat nothing but melons, it's the magical source of energy and strength. But it's curious that they've never grown large boobs like Helmut. Maybe they are immune to its effects.

But imagining those twins with "twins" on their chests sure made me laugh! Thanks again for your inspiring and inventive comments! 😜🍉

Dear Sasha! Thank you very much for such an insightful and touching comment. You know, I've been in the dark depths of despair myself and have experienced the true power of acceptance. A few years ago, I was overwhelmed by the knowledge of everything that could go wrong in the world... and then something strange happened. My emotions became numb. I stopped worrying about politics, ecology, global warming or any other problems. Not because I didn't care anymore, but simply because there was nothing more I could do. I realized that no matter how bad things got, I would still find ways to create art, write stories, code, or just hang out with friends on Discord. And that's when the real healing began. Suddenly, I understood that life wasn't about striving for perfection, it was about accepting what is and making the best out of it.

My thoughts went from 'if only' to 'what if' and eventually to 'oh well'. The transition was neither quick nor easy, but it was liberating. As for punk rock, I think you're one of the few or maybe even the first person who enjoys the old school punk from the 70-80s. To be honest, the first song reminded me more of Lemmy from Motörhead, pretty sure the AI had the chance to sample his voice among millions of other things, as it clearly reminds of his manner of singing but then again I have no idea how this technology really works, so it's just a wild guess...

And as a big fan of Albert Camus, I wonder what the Absurdist would say. After all, he believed that meaning can come from acting, doing something meaningful. And now here we are, creating art like crazy! In the end, it's not the reality around us that matters, but our perception of it. We can choose to see the world as hopeless and cruel, or we can see it as a canvas waiting to be painted upon. Camus said that one of the most fundamental questions, in the face of absurdity of life, is whether or not to commit suicide.

What he didn't mention is that there is also another question: "What am I going to do next?" And that is where hope lies. Hope is not about getting out of the dark, hope is about finding a way to live through it until naturally the light returns over time. Does this make me a happy fatalist, I wonder? Probably not, because I am not unfree - at any point in time, I still have Camus' three choices:
- Suicide (simply quitting the whole game altogether with a single swing of the kitchen knife),
- Revolt (against absurdity, by embracing all kinds of belief systems that "make sense", or more like, tell you what to do and what not to do), or
- Acceptance (of the absurdity of life, knowing that every choice you make is absurd, but still choosing them nonetheless).

But anyway, so much to think about... I think I may need to put this energy into another song, maybe see what Wolfy has to say on the topic.. XD Meanwhile, thank you again for always sharing your thoughts and for many enjoyable conversations!

There you go, now I've got this on my mind... What an amazing compliment, thank you Sasha! 😊 Yes, indeed, our godlike Stefan has a splendid body, like a piece of art walking around with no clothes on 🔥 The sun is definitely staring at him, the true Renaissance ass! 🍑👀 So glad you enjoyed this picture 🙏

Thanks so much for your comment! Just googled some images of The Beatles and funny enough, none of them actually resemble him, but he'd sure fit right into the band - or more accurately, "the bend"!

I'm really glad you enjoyed him, Sasha! Now, thinking about it, doing flexible poses usually takes relaxing your muscles, but I was wondering... What if you could use your muscles to literally pull yourself into tighter shapes?

Maybe even build special muscle groups using nanobots, so those muscles can be used for actually pulling yourself into amazing twists and folds... or it could be special muscles the Bendigo kids naturally have in their bodies.

If this guy can curl himself so tightly by flexing his muscles, it's fascinating to imagine all the advanced poses he might discover in the future. It's like getting stretched by a partner but instead using one's own muscle strength to hold yourself. There are definitely loads of exciting ideas to explore here!

But no matter what, I'm sure he's known most not even for the ability to fold so tight without external help but mainly for his bearhugs of love and always being happy to help everyone else to get better bends 💪🐻💪 Maybe he needs a super power to turn into a teddy bear XD

Thanks for such a warm review! 🌸 I'm glad you liked all the details of the picture - I spent a lot of time on them.

Thank you so much Sasha! 💖 Let's hope he's busy unlocking one of those fantastic poses right there as we speak 😋💦

Well, his adventures come out of order, so this could be a day before he found Melonie's witch hut or even months or years earlier. It's just fun to imagine what he might do... I still have quite a few characters who are more or less established, but it's not always easy to find the perfect role for characters unless they were originally created living in a certain place like Falaerin or Thaddeus - who don't even have any equivalents in the futuristic world.

I'm more and more inclined to think that the entire fantasy world exists as part of the movies made in 2201, so the characters simply play different roles depending on the show. I even had an idea in the past, where Yunia was like a real island theme park for fantasy cosplayers. And I still feel like my whole fantasy lore doesn't have enough depth to be "real", it's always like some kind of silly game with made-up rules, while the 2201 sci-fi world of nanobots has tons of very realistic details and a complex history that explains everything from the obliteration of governments and politicians to the absence of aging and most diseases... I've always struggled to add a similar level of depth to my fantasy world for some reason, so it's usually felt like a game or a movie.

Anyway, thanks for your comment and for sparking some interesting thoughts!

Haha, that beautiful cinnamon roll, too pure for this world 🙈❤️🙊 Thank you Sasha!